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Uvri Rcztzr-Irv,

Uvri Rcztzr-Irv,

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Z drp efk sv gifgyvkzt, slk Z uf befn kyv pfl kyrk pfl yrmv jyfne. Wifd nyrk Z tre jvv, pfl riv r jdrik, trizex, reu wivv kyzebzex zeuzmzulrc. Fev urp, Z svczvmv pfl nzcc uf szx kyzexj wfi pflijvcw. Bvvg uivrdzex, bvvg cfmzex, reu bvvg svzex pflijvcw.
Cfmv,
Rmz

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I’m An Angry Chef…. Rawr

Cooking with Anger was really fun! My list was:

Level: Chef

Your basket:

Main Ingredients:

wife

loser

cheap red wine

vinegar

bedroom

Spice Pack:

1/3 smidge of frivolousness

1/4 cup of agitation

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My story:

Have you ever been so in love with someone, your heart aches when there’s distance between? That slow, agonizing torment that creates a nervousness in your blood. The rushing you may try and ignore that flows through your warm, soft skin, if you drink an espresso when your usual cup of the day is nothing but a cool glass of water. The anxious, palm sweat forms as you try to remember the last time you saw their face. Heard their voice. Felt their skin. distance that stretches across oceans of minutes, to a place where you hope she can remember the sound of her cell phone…

I am a loser. A loser of keys and wallets and cell phones and receipts. A loser of memories. Memories of forgotten calls and texts. Of missed birthdays and anniversaries. I am no better than the vinegar that attracted the flies from your lips as you spat ugly, horrendous adjectives in my direction. I am no better than the cheap red wine that flew through the air, and crashed at the base of my retreating skull. Ruby red still trails from the spot you once stood, to the bedroom where I packed you in a suitcase, and left you by the door. I am no better than… or so you once told me. The sound of your voice was once one that left me steaming in a hot cup mixed with a fourth of agitation. The shrill sound of each beckoning call, the sureness of your words, the raspy whispers that escaped your throat as you once called me by another name. Once.

We called each other husband and wife. And once, you looked at me with the longing eyes of some distant memory. A memory that faded to a lull as your taillights disappeared into the drunken night. I see you in the kitchen, the bathroom before work, in the hallway at night, the bedroom the morning after you left.. Your figure is no more than a hologram, but the ghost of your presence haunts me like needles pricking my delicate skin. I see you in the broken promise of hot coffee which was no more than a frivolous suggestion. I see you for what you became. The monster you revealed.

The distance of you creates nightmares in my stomach as the waves crash and the air stands still in my lungs.

Exhale and remember, everything in life is temporary.

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About Avicenna Alrazi

Hi all!

My name is Avicenna Alrazi, but my friends call me Avi.  I am from Одинцовский район, Россия which is a beautiful place in Russia. Here, you can see my home below! 

My English is not so good so please, how you say, bear it with me as you read on. I am a Performer, and my specific skill sets are: Visual: 3, Writer: 7, Social: 2, Audio: 8. To be a performer is something new to me. I found my passion through a twisted turn of events! You see, there were to many artists in my family. My 13 brothers and sisters all wanted to be artists growing up. I aspired to be one as well. One day, the president enforced a new law, claiming there could only be 3 people in each class in every family. If we were found to have more than the law said, our family would be killed. So, in order to save my family I was one of the several who had to switch their class. In doing so, I found what I truly love to do. 

My profile card can be seen here:

A performer is said to have the following traits: A performer Is not strictly an entertainer, though they are popular– the Performer brings ideas, stories to life in a way everyone can appreciate and understand. They deeply understand what moves people, what makes them react. The performer extends immense amounts of energy on communicating, so much that they may have trouble relaxing. In fact, there are no reports of relaxing performers. What the do takes place not only in public performance spaces, but also online, in small groups, in writing. Performing is very effusive communicating. They often struggle with their own existence when they deeply take on other characters. I have found that sharing stories with others in a new medium has helped me grow as an individual and I am glad life took me down this path.

Not only do I enjoy performing but I have other hobbies as well. One of newer hobbies is observing. I like to watch how other people go about their day. The problems that individual has faced can sometimes be noted on their brow, or in the way they bite at their frayed and nubby fingernails. I take these observations and I learn new ways of performing to tell their story…It sounds odd, but trust me. It’s a perfect technique. I also have always and will always love to read. Books are a way to help me escape when the shadows of Russia become a desolate prison. You can also find me on Twitter from time to time. You can find my page here: https://twitter.com/AvicennaAlraz. I often wonder about other Alchemists like myself. Do they too go through periods of feeling trapped and slaved to this world as well? Or am I in this alone? To be a performer can be a daunting task and sometimes I feel the stress of life clawing at me. I sometimes don’t remember who I am, or who I’d like to be. I take on the multiple masks of my stories and I bring the words to life off of the page.  To take on those faces can be an exhausting job, so I commend any like me who struggle. Some advice to those who feel life as I do: Do not give up.

Be kinder. Love Longer. Dream Unconditionally.